Warning: Personal Rant Ahead

REALLY?!

Honestly- I have been raised in a family who respects Billy Graham and this is not about him or his values but I will never understand his son- who speaks out and takes issue with the most ridiculous things . Case in point, while I follow Billy Graham on twitter whose tweets consist mainly of scripture and strengthening your faith, I cringe whenever I see Franklin Graham’s name in the headlines bc its always attached to things that in my opinion are charged to incite drama and get attention (like really we should boycott TARGET?!! because they dont label “girly” legos?!? or the Muppets because of sex/ beastiality?!?! really? bc so many people are going to cite the muppets as their inspiration) REALLY.

I’m sorry I just feel like there are more important issues that Christians should be rallying for, focusing on following Jesus’ lead. It’s disappointing how popular he is and comments that always follow…

RANT OVER

emily.

What is faith?

~Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1~

Lately, I have not been my best self because I have lost a lot of my spirit and joy in life. Blame it on the winter season dumps or due to the burdens of my semester but I know hidden in my mind and heart is the root: lost hope and doubt of turning myself around. But these last few days have proven that God is working double time trying to give me a sign of better things to come. I literally have have seen this bible verse all around me, it haunts me as I go about my day. It was in my devotion last night and it was on my tumblr three times in a row today. I just can’t ignore God staring straight at me in the form of a bible verse from Hebrews. After stopping to reflect on this verse numerous times, how can I deny that this is exactly what I needed to hear in the midst of my outcries to the Lord. To hold close to me and never let go. I cannot see Him but I am assured He has been here the whole time, preparing all that I hope for in his beautiful timing. Amen and Hallelujah to that.
x emily.

We break when we fall too hard/ Lose faith when we’re torn apart/ Don’t say you’re too far gone/ It’s a shame.

Never Gone: Colton Dixon

Do you ever have that nagging feel like there’s something you should be doing but instead you just continue to sit at your desk or whatever and stare into space, wondering where to go from here? There are a hundred and one things I could be working on for the sake of future me but I just don’t have the energy. I’m so tired of pulling myself out of the waves of depression and doubt. I don’t know if this is technically rock bottom but here’s hoping that February only gets better from here. 

To quote the rest of the song, I need to remember:

I’m still standing here/ No I didn’t disappear/ Now the lights are on/ See I was never gone/ I let go of your hand/ To help you understand/ With you all along/ Oh, I was never gone

I never ever left you/ Never ever left you, no./ He said I never ever left you/ Never ever left you, no./ Jesus never ever left you/ Never ever left you, no.    He sees us, even in the darkness/ Now you know you’re not alone.