As we begin to count down the hours and minutes until the new year, what better time than now to reflect on times past. In honor of auld lang syne, (my favorite song to ring in the new year) I would like to post the few songs that have stood the test of time and gotten me through the challenges of this year. New and old; a variety of genres, music is what calms my soul and brings me strength. I hope that it can speak to you as it does to me.
I know there are probably more but these are the ones I can remember as of right now. I will leave you with my favorite rendition of Auld Lang Syne and I hope you are blessed with the best 2016 you can ask for.
I recently found this on the internet and it made me think because while I am experiencing this right now, I don’t know how I feel about it. It sucks to lose friends and I agree that it is a natural part of going forward with your life but it always doesn’t have to be that way. Don’t rid yourself of the people in your past who love you just because you think its time to “growing up”. I think that growing up means that you are becoming who you want to be, figuring out what is important and real. Someone with dreams and goals, someone who makes mistakes and learns from them. Shedding friends is not the only part of growing up. Realizing that you must cherish the ones who really matter, new or old; this is the true mark of “growing up”.
aka: gloomy, glum.
I really wish some things in life would be easier.
It would rid me of a lot of the stress and frustration.
Never Gone: Colton Dixon
Do you ever have that nagging feel like there’s something you should be doing but instead you just continue to sit at your desk or whatever and stare into space, wondering where to go from here? There are a hundred and one things I could be working on for the sake of future me but I just don’t have the energy. I’m so tired of pulling myself out of the waves of depression and doubt. I don’t know if this is technically rock bottom but here’s hoping that February only gets better from here.
To quote the rest of the song, I need to remember:
I’m still standing here/ No I didn’t disappear/ Now the lights are on/ See I was never gone/ I let go of your hand/ To help you understand/ With you all along/ Oh, I was never gone
I never ever left you/ Never ever left you, no./ He said I never ever left you/ Never ever left you, no./ Jesus never ever left you/ Never ever left you, no. He sees us, even in the darkness/ Now you know you’re not alone.
My mom just got back from New Orleans for “work” and is now leaving for Dublin today for a “business trip” yet again. I air quote these because she really is going to be in these amazing places, stuck in a hotel conference room for most of the day but at night I have seen status updates from the coolest places and I just wish I could be there too! I know she wishes that she could be there for just the fun part and enjoy it with my dad or the rest of us but its just the way its gotta be.
I worry that I will never be able to travel and experience things abroad the way she does because being a future teacher doesn’t require or even allow much time to leave the local area. It scares me that I might never get to see the world the way I want to because even though I love the idea of being a teacher it isn’t the only thing I want to do for the rest of my life and it shouldn’t have to be. I want to go on road trips in a tear drop RV and book a room in every resort in Disney World and see all of Europe (Ok, maybe that’s a bit ambitious). But I at least want to have the opportunity and time to be able to do the things I dream about and pin onto my pinterest boards!
And not just before I “settle down” or in the “golden years” of retirement. I don’t want to have to remember the good old days or look forward them in the monotony of my present life, I want memories and adventure to be all around me. I am okay with a traditional lifestyle. I am okay with having a small house and an even smaller salary. I am excited to meet someone (maybe someone with a larger salary 😉 to build an ordinary family with in suburbia, USA. But I still want so much more for myself. I want to see awesome things and do awesome things all throughout my life. I want to give and receive and love and be loved and learn and teach and meet cool people and make a difference. I want to live my ordinary life as awesomely as I can.