poetry from the past

pages turn
time passes
but this is no book
this is life

How quick 
How s l o w

makes no difference

it will come

joys and struggles
love and loss
dreams and failures
hope and pain
join hands

beautiful longing
destructive passion


for answers
for wholeness
for peace

the pages turn
the books is coming to a close
as it began

(and nothing more).

(Originally written 11/21/13- I know this one isn’t all that great but I remember being inspired after learning about e.e. cummings who still is now one of my favorite poets)


poetry from the past

Only whispers remain of the memories
that are slowly fading
cold is my heart and fleeting dreams
after years of waiting

Long are the days of discontent
expectations left unfulfilled do not relent
Nothing less and nothing more
what have I been waiting for?

Am I bound to exist
alone? and how can I resist
this lonely predestined existence
will I, can I, risk this chance?

Change is not an option
Fate will not step in
It seems it’s always been on me
but self esteem is rarely free

I don’t want the game or chase;
To be loved is to accept and embrace
Each “X” made on my calendar
Is one day more I’ve made thus far

(Originally written 11/17/13 for my creative writing college class)

Spring FAVES :)

I was worried with the increase of temperature last week that I might have missed my chance to do a spring favorites post- but the spring roller coaster of the east coast wasn’t done yet with temps back into the 50’s this week. This makes it really hard to pick out clothes and keep flowers alive! #greenthumb?

Pictured here is my most recent flowers *fingers crossed* and my new coaster provided by my March OwlCrate box ❤






Here is just a sampling of things I’ve loved this Spring!

Burt's Bees Brightening Even-Tone Moisturizing Cream, 1.8 oz
Burt’s Bees Face Brightening moisturizer (w/ daisy extract) oooOooh 🙂

Pixi Glow Tonic 3.4 Fl Oz


(I’ve heard a few good reviews of this so I thought I’d give it a go… I’m only a few days into a routine so we’ll see)


American Eagle Soft & Sexy Tees

I literally have 4 of these tees in different patterns that I wear as often as possible. I cannot even describe how soft and comfortable they are- and very flattering. Sometimes I even fancy it up with my bauble necklace to get away with wearing it at work. hehe




I know this seems odd for warmer weather but its nice to have fresh smells and a warm glow for the more cloudy days. Plus I needed seasonal scents appropriate for spring/summer: From left to right is Signature Soy Beach House, Bloom and Prosper Summer Breeze, and Target ($ section) frosted pineapple. 🙂

Also, I go through phases of coloring to clear my mind so I’ve collected quite a few coloring books. These are my current faves because I they aren’t SO detailed that it’s impossible to enjoy. Also the one on the right has devotionals on every other page so that’s a nice addition. ❤

On a similar note, I have been putting more effort into revitalizing my daily life by trying to get out and about more which resulted in using my handy dandy LIBRARY CARD!! ❤ I know that seems odd but I haven’t ever actually had my own card so it’s nice to be able to get books at my leisure! 🙂

My newest series of interest is THE LUNAR CHRONICLES   *ooOoohhh*

I was hesitant at first because I thought is sounded a bit cheesy as a “sci-fi fairy tale” but it’s actually pretty engaging. I just finished Cinder and I like it enough to continue so I think that’s a good sign!






My second book recommendation comes from deep within my history nerdiness:

If you like female empowerment from the civil war era than look no further! haha

Also this is random but I can’t deny that I spend most of my time watching TV… Here are a few of my most recent  Netflix faves that have crossed my channel!

Series: Cheers (Finally finished this 11 season sitcom my parents used to watch)

Drama\History: The Butler (ugh so emotional)

Sitcom: Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt (they’re alive dammit! Season 2 baby!)

Animation: Hotel Transylvania 2 ( I know it seems lame but it was goooood)

Documentary: I Know That Voice! (So much nostalgia and awesomeness from your favorite voice actors)

Well, that’s all folks! hehe

x emily.



Make-up Makeover!

Lately I have been uninspired by my make-up look and I set off to find some products that could make me feel revitalized for the spring/summer.

I really wanted to find a shade that worked for my face because I truly think that its one of the hardest things for women.#firstworldproblems…

SO i went a little overboard with foundations in order to find the right shade and consistency and wanted to give myself options… also I’m indecisive so I would have regretted only getting one of them if it didn’t work out.


Primer: Hard Candy Lift and Firm

This was more because I was running out of my current primer and thought I’d like to try something new 🙂


  • Covergirl Ready Set Gorgeous fresh complexion
  • Maybelline dream liquid mousse airbrush finish
  • Revlon Photoready fresh effect

I was trying to find something that had the same dewey effect as my past foundations with medium coverage but I was a little disappointed that the first two had a much lighter coverage than I expected and also set a little darker than they looked (better for summer tan me). The last one seems like it will dry the right shade but is a lot more runny than I thought it would be and so probably won’t have the coverage I’m looking for. I know that’s what concealer is for but I find that it only makes my break outs more frequent and severe. So I try to make up for my lack of concealer with a strong yet not cakey foundation. So far these products are worth their price and will give me more options but not exactly what I was hoping for so the search continues…


I’m really excited to use these more often to brighten my face and give it some depth because I’m kinda getting tired of my go to bronze and blush is not my best look #clown

  • Maybelline master hi-light
  • L’oreal True Match lumi


Comment below if you have some recommendations that work for you!

x emily.

fashion statement

I feel like I have a decent fashion sense or at least have an idea of what I think is cute, but I can never find “fashionable” things in the stores near me because I don’t live in a big city with all the designer brands and latest trends. Not that I care that much but I really just don’t have the skill or the funds to put together amazing outfits with a hodge-podge of pieces from places, some better than others. Plus I’m what some may call cheap, (I prefer thrifty), which can be a detriment to how much I’m willing to spend for a decent dress or pair of pants. Like I’m sorry but I am not paying a more than good twenty for a slinky blouse unless its got like gold buttons. I just don’t see why pieces of fabric sewn together have to be so darn expensive 😦 Sometimes I wish I was more edgy or more feminine which I guess stems from my underlying desire in life to be more.  #endrant #selftherapy

x emily.

Grease Live!

Grease is my all time favorite musical and leading up to this event, I swore I was not going to give FOX the time of day. But I couldn’t resist turning it on tonight so FOX do not ruin this for me.

I had so many thoughts in my head as soon as it started that I decided to “live tweet” it. Here’s what I got so far:

  • I think Jessie J did a good job on the Grease song but I don’t have a great feeling in my stomach about the breaking the 4th wall thing, exposing the set like that.
  • Also, I know it’s not really important but from a historical aspect, schools were not integrated in 1959. I respect the diversity and have no problem with it, but as a history buff, I did notice.
  • I’m still not sure about Aaron Tveit as Danny Zuko
  • Ana Gasteyer is the PERFECT person for that part.
  • BUT…
  • I hate Vannessa Hudgens as rizzo. It’s just insulting. She has no swagger. Just because the wig makes you look the part does not mean you are Rizzo.
  • AND Carly Rae Jepson as Frenchy is just a joke.
  • SALT LAKE CITY? What? why would changing where she comes from be useful?
  • Summer Nights I give 8/10 They just can’t hit the notes like John and Olivia.
  • WTH is with Mario Lopez? When did Broadway shows start having hosts?
  • There is some clever lines thrown in there. I give the writers props for that.
  • Okay. Sandy is not supposed to be good at cheer leading. And I don’t like the studio audience. Hearing them and seeing them interrupts getting into the show.
  • I really tried. But I can’t. Call me a theater or Grease snob but it’s too different. I made it about a half an hour in but I’d rather watch the Law & Order: SVU marathon.

*Update: Ok, after a day to consider how I feel and finding out about Vannessa Hudgen’s father,  I feel bad for bashing her last night. So I will say this, I cannot imagine having to perform hours after such a loss. Watch the video of here performance here.

I did not keep the show on long enough to hear this song but she did an exceptional job. She may not have “won me over” but it was very emotional (which the song already is for me) and the closest she reached to the original Rizzo.

But if you watch the original, Stockard Channing’s voice may not be perfect but she nails the inflection and body language, and the added panning to Kenickie at times only makes it more meaningful. I’m sorry this is such an “analysis” but I think Grease is so important to me because I see so much of the innocent “Sandra Dee” in me even though I wish I could have a little more of Rizzo’s confidence. So that song in particular resonates with me because I see the vulnerability of Rizzo. This was also the first “broadway movie” I had on VHS (It even came with a mini original script) 🙂 so I’m a bit protective of it.

x emily.

Reading Challenge Wrap Up: 2015

I attempted a year long reading challenge and although I only accomplished about a little more than half of the “goals” I did finish off the year with 19 books completed! (The perfectionist in me is bummed that I didn’t make it up to 20 books but I did technically reach 20 of the “goals”) Below I will list the books I read and rate them out of 10, just for fun! Maybe one will catch your eye and you’ll find your next favorite book!

  • Girl Online: Zoe Sugg (8/10)
  • I Kill the Mockingbird: Paul Acampora (7/10)
  • We are the Goldens: Dana Reinhardt (7/10)
  • The Cat Ate My Gym Shorts: Paula Danzinger (7/10)
  • Every Last Word: Tamara Ireland Stone (10/10)
  • The Here and Now: Ann Brashares (9/10)
  • The Adoration of Jenna Fox: Mary E. Pearson (8/10)
  • Searching for Sky: Jillian Cantor (6/10)
  • Yes, Please: Amy Poehler (8/10)
  • The Beginning of Everything: Robyn Shneider (7/10)
  • Legend Trilogy: Marie Lu (9/10) Technically, I know this is 3 books but I only count it as one since it only fulfills one “goal” as a trilogy.
  • The Tales of Beedle the Bard: JK Rowling (9/10)
  • Me and Earl and the Dying Girl: Jesse Andrews (8/10)
  • Fangirl: Rainbow Rowell (9/10)
  • Fish in a Tree: Lynda Mullaly Hunt (8/10)
  • Freak the Mighty: Rodman Philbrick (7/10)
  • Dumplin’: Julie Murphy (8.5/10)
  • The Strange and Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender: Leslye Walton (10/10)
  • Why Not Me: Mindy Kaling (10/10)
  • Soundless: Rachel Mead (I won’t rate this bc this book reached the “book I started but never finished” goal soooo…. 🙂

I don’t think I’ll do such a structured book challenge in 2016 but I do want to make a resolution to read more because I have so many unfinished books in my bookshelf and I would love to spend more time in the library.

I hope this post didn’t totally bore everyone and that it inspires you to check out some new books!

x emily.