My mom just got back from New Orleans for “work” and is now leaving for Dublin today for a “business trip” yet again. I air quote these because she really is going to be in these amazing places, stuck in a hotel conference room for most of the day but at night I have seen status updates from the coolest places and I just wish I could be there too! I know she wishes that she could be there for just the fun part and enjoy it with my dad or the rest of us but its just the way its gotta be.
I worry that I will never be able to travel and experience things abroad the way she does because being a future teacher doesn’t require or even allow much time to leave the local area. It scares me that I might never get to see the world the way I want to because even though I love the idea of being a teacher it isn’t the only thing I want to do for the rest of my life and it shouldn’t have to be. I want to go on road trips in a tear drop RV and book a room in every resort in Disney World and see all of Europe (Ok, maybe that’s a bit ambitious). But I at least want to have the opportunity and time to be able to do the things I dream about and pin onto my pinterest boards!
And not just before I “settle down” or in the “golden years” of retirement. I don’t want to have to remember the good old days or look forward them in the monotony of my present life, I want memories and adventure to be all around me. I am okay with a traditional lifestyle. I am okay with having a small house and an even smaller salary. I am excited to meet someone (maybe someone with a larger salary 😉 to build an ordinary family with in suburbia, USA. But I still want so much more for myself. I want to see awesome things and do awesome things all throughout my life. I want to give and receive and love and be loved and learn and teach and meet cool people and make a difference. I want to live my ordinary life as awesomely as I can.